Brad Pitt Divorce Diary
Man oh man.
53 year old guys are not even supposed to write in divorce diaries. But somebody told me it is good therapy. I feel like I need good therapy. I have a therapist and I get help but I figure an extra outlet can’t do too much damage. So I am doing this Brad Pitt divorce diary.
So where am I with this experience? Man. Dude. It’s surreal. This thing is not easy. Life is not easy, man. Funny thing is, I used to think that I got such a good hand. And I played my cards and my life was just as good as it was gonna get.
I still think that for the most part I got a good hand. But man. I have had to face some stuff you know and it was hard. It is hard.
Angelina…I really loved her, I think, if I understand what love is. I think I fell in love with her. Or the idea of what I wanted her to be. I mean, and really, it just wasn’t possible for her to live up to the fantasy. And it is not her fault. That was my bad. That was 100% my bad.
In the end, she was just a normal woman, a regular girl who wanted happy home and a bunch of kids and a Land Rover. To be honest with you, I was surprised by how decent she is. And in a real way it was a good surprise. But if I am totally straight, I would say it was also a bad surprise.
Cause I think that…on a certain level…I wanted and needed that bad girl to be on all the time. And I know it is unfair and I know it is unreasonable. And I know it is unrealistic. But, you know, I needed the opposite of Jennifer. I wanted excitement and pulsating action, and you know, the movie is to blame. I think the way we met and fell in love on this high octane movie really just was not realistic. I think we fell in love with characters and this obviously was a recipe for disaster because neither of us is the character we play in the movies we act in.
I feel so much guilt about so many things. But I wouldn’t change anything that happened in the last decade and in the last year, it was a brutal year for me. But I learned so much about life and about myself and I had to face my demons.
And, you know, this thing with the alcoholism, it was time for that to be out in the open and it is a problem and I am trying to get the help that I need.
It wrecked my marriage and my family and you know, this just breaks me up inside. Losing my family. But to be honest with you, freedom is priceless too and I get to see the kids and take them on little outings and they live not far away.
And not to brag or anything but I do think that if I want it bad enough, I can get Angelina back. Cause she has been giving me some looks lately and I think there could be an opportunity for us to reconcile.
I just don’t know if it is a good idea. But I am sure the kids would love it.
(this is a work of fiction and was not written by the actor Brad Pitt)